I have a phobia of submissions.

It's been weeks, maybe a month or more...
Day after day, I couldn't post my precious and wholesome works.
Each time, I was encouraged by my kind-hearted followers.
But the next day, after the submission was completed, I was stopped again.
And so on and so forth...
And again today, three more works...
After half a day, no improvement, so I gave up.
"If I post again tomorrow, I might be prevented from posting again after I'm done..."
Why is it that every time I try to submit a work, I only do so in a moral and healthy way, and yet...
I can't go on like this anymore. I'll get depressed.
Or maybe I already am.
About two weeks ago, I started having auditory hallucinations every night when I lay awake.
"You're not healthy! You're not healthy!" And...
I don't know if I have any choice but to leave ・・・・ even though I love the art.